I’ve been so overwhelmed lately that I hadn’t been writing because I just didn’t want too.
However, right now…at this moment…my anxiety is high and I’m crying my eyes out because grounding myself just isn’t working.
My mind is racing. I can’t breath. I’m drowning…again.
Breathing exercises aren’t working. I’ve sat on my prayer mat and prayed as tears fell…and I’m still not grounded.
So I decided to write.
I’m here to say, you are it alone when you’re consumed with emotion, and anxiety, and fear for no reason. You are not alone when your own mind makes you feel like nothing is going to be okay. I understand. I’ve been there and I’m here now.
It’s surprising that I can write any of this at all because my mouth isn’t working…I can’t articulate anything I’m feeling verbally. I feel like I’m suffocating with emotions that I lack the ability to process.
I’m emotionally ignorant because for years I suppressed many emotions and I never learned to process or understand them. So when the world is overwhelming and I’m like this, not only am I anxious but I’m scared because I can’t understand what I’m feeling and that sucks even more.
If you ever feel like you’re drowning…understand, it’s okay!
I’ll throw you a lifesaver. I’ll swim out to you. I’ll wade in the water with you until you’re ready to come out. Follow me. I know the way. I’m here often.